NO New Year Celebration for me..=(

The good news is, im back with YOU ;)..but the bad news is, i cant celebrate it with YOU. :(
what to do..your work doesnt allow you..time2 org nk clbrt skali ngn beloved lah,de kene shift mlm..*sigh* its not like we're celebrating new years every day~
i dont know if we can celebrate ape2 lg da pasney, since u're going away for the police training.*heavy sigh*
The last time we're celebratin event pon time merdeka diz year, but itu pon gado2 jugak...so NOT FUN.pfft..(wait, i confused either new year clbrtion or merdeka..haha)
i was hoping we can celebrate our 2nd new year together like last year, but..tepakse la tggu~kn SYG???

=(((((
-org yg sedang besedey sbb xdpt clbrt dgn yayang nye-

i HATE you, but i LOVE you..

sory...tp i xkuat..eventhough im the one ask for break up, but i feel miserable,i thought i could live without you..but tgk lah, br sehari break..i da rase mcm org gile...obviously i need you..='(
But everytime i bg u chance, u buat balik..n hati i saket balik..smpai bile i nk rase mcmni..i xbole nk sng2 lupekn everything that we have gone through..senang susah,i dgn u, sihat saket, i dgn u..even b4 ni kite gadoh, things will work out eventually..but kali ni, i xtau knp hati i keras sgt n insists nk break..maybe bcoz i xdpt trime the fact that u curang n tpoo i bcoz of other girl yg i rase bukan saingan i pon..
i pnh ckp, i xnk syg org btol2..coz it will be difficult n damn hurtful for me to forget him, n i ckp i xnk syg u btol2 sbb tkot i xdpt trime bile mnde jd mcmni..but look what happen,mmg mnde dh jd pon..
if u btol syg i, u would juz agree dgn ape yg i cdgkn last nite!!!but u ego! sebok risaukn i akn buat balik ape u buat..kalo i nk trime u balik, means i xkn wat..bodo!!if i nk buat balik, i xpyh bg u peluang pon..i trus cr jntn laen mlm td jgk..xsusah pon nk cr..
i ckp mcm tu last nite sbb i nk bg u takot n sedar kesalahan u.supaya u xbuat lg...if i trus trang ckp dkt u yg i xkn bls..nnt lame2 u akn wat balik..sbb u tau,i xkn wat pape or balas balik..i akn maafkn u bute2 mcm tu je..
i mmg harap sgt we can fix this thing out, n make it better..tp u xphm n xnmpk ape yg i cube buat..coz u bodo sgt,lembab,lurus!!!u sebok pk kn i akn balas balik..instead of cube baiki keadaan..
i xtau apsal i bole syg org selembab u ni..tp bile perasaaan dah syg, mnde len sume i tolak tepi..buruk baik i trime..tapi knape still u tpoo i lg??
mungkin i xde jodoh dgn u..mungkin u deserve better, coz honestly i ckp, i bukan baik sgt pon..
di andaikn kite mmg xde jodoh, n our relationship will stop here,i hope u will be a better person n blajar berckp jujur dan berterus terang,xde siape yg suke di tipu..
i wish u best of luck if u dpt masok polis..dan kalau btol u nk convert, biarlah sbb niat yg btol..=)


i hate u, but i love u chris barderick.