Do Not Exploit ME!!!

eeeee...getting tired day by day..asik keje3!! da mcm org suruhan plak!! pastu yg len balik, tau2 nk megarah ak itu ini..i know my work xla berat mn..tp kalo dr start ak celik mata, smpai mlm sume nk harapkn ak je yg nk wat mnde kt uma ni..superman pon bole resign awl taw x!

da la ak jenis, slagi keje xsiap xkn mkn..coz i know when im full, mule lah mate berat nk mapus..wat keje pon lembab mcm sipot, kompom mls nk smbg wat blik..last2 smpi mlm ak xmkn, xmndi..haisshhhhhh...bole cepat tua la ini macam!!

-i didnt get enough sleep
-too many chores to do in so little time
-what i hate the most, pnat2 ak kmas..esok uma tunggang langgang balik!

oi! bkn nye ade bdk2 kecik pon kt uma ni nk nyepahkn umahh..sume da besa pjg, da bole kawen, n da ad ank pon..xkn pinggan sndri xrety bsh??tpt tdo sndri xrety kmas?? kalo ak xkmas, pastu blik nk memekak kt ak; "naqyah ko ni duk uma satu hari suntuk xrety kms umah ke?" What The FUCK?? sume yg sepah2 tu korunk punye brg, korunk nye tpt,korunk punye sisa mknn. xrety bsh sndri ke?? tau la korunk keje..mak pon keje jgk.boleh je ak tgk mak msk dinner tok korunk?? xkn mnde2 kecik tu xrety nk wat sndri? abes tu kalo ak xde kt umah? kompom berulat satu umah..smph ak da kumpul pon xrety nk tlg buangkn..pinggan sndri?? lg harapan lah nk bsh kn??

kalo takat mak abh, ak xkesah..sbb dorunk da tua, mmg ptot pon ak wat..masaelahnye yg laen2 kudrat masing2 kuat2 lg...xkn keje sket pon xley wat?lembik ke? jantan2 kt umah ni? mcm xde jntn je..sume pemalas...hiiiissssyyyyyy...geram laaaa!!!! alih2 sume mnde ak yg kene wat..sume tuding kt ak..AKU! AKU! AKU! AKU!!

patot la ak sronok duduk kolej, blik umah sume wat ak mcm maid..
ak ni da dikire di eksploitasi da nih!!

and this saturday, my sis's wed..just great!! extra chores 4 me!! fuck.

im too exhausted to do more work..

fuck fuck fuck!
xmo,xbek mencarut.

astargfirullahhal'azim
astargfirullahhal'azim
astargfirullahhal'azim

Ya Allah, bg la ak kekuatan fizikal dan mental bg hari2 yg bakal mendatang..
biar eklas sket hati ni,n bukak kn sket hati and mata dorunk tu..supaya sdr tanggungjawab msg2..pliz3...

p/s: stop exploiting me!!!! ggrrrr

fully utilized day, i may say.

sape kate cuti sem student duk uma tekangkang membesarkn perot je??
well, not for me.*dgn nada bangga sket*

knpkah ak xsempat nk membesarkn perot ketika sem break? bcoz i've become a full time maid at home with no wage given..*untung mak dpt aku*haha..

so td bgn pg....errr,ptg dlm kol 2.*sorry mok, xsempat kejotkn.sumpah xdgr alarm lgsg.huhu* then bgn2 wash up JE..musim cuti ak mengamalkn mandi sehari bg menjimatkn penggunaan air.muahahhaha..mls la nk mndi..nnt mndi awl2..pastu wat keje,ploh2 blik..masam jugak.better mndi bile keje sume da siap.bkn ade org nk pelok ciom ak pon..except for ARISH!!sian arish,smpi masam makcu ciom de..wawawa.

ok2, then after wash up..went down for brakfast,tgk2 nasi goreng sape tah smlm punye ade lg..*i guess it was dad's sbb ad cili api, and de sorunk je mkn salu xabes.so it must be his* ciom2, elok lg nih...so ak improvise dgn msk sramble egg untuk meneman nasik smlm.*lapa punye pasal, ak bedal je ape yg ade.bkn malas OK! nk mengelakkn pembaziran ;p*

then after i had my brunch*since it was 2pm already,consider as my brunch la jgk.haha* time to work!work!work! washed the dishes, clean up the living hall, washed the clothes, clear the porch, and etc..until 5 something..
OK, works all done.then mom's home,with arish..harapan ak tuk mndi lps wat sume keje punah.hahaha..*arish, kaw balik sume org xjd wat keje to x!!!naseb baek kaw comel*

dgn kemasaman tahap melampau akibat mnjadi bibik, ak layan c arish while waiting mom went to look for new toilet doors for my room and takep's..
lepas ak peram arish smpi de masam mcm ak, br dorunk blik.
ok, still xdpt mndi lg..kene pnskn nasik 'king of the king' ni, bg de mkn..then helped mom preparing dinner.about 8 o'clock br laaahhh ak dpt mndi..hwa3..*masam dow,dgn bj tdo dr pg..mmg sebijik mcm bibik dah!*

rasa teramat sgt puas n segar dpt mandi..ak sental2 bedal2 sume celah smpi di jamin kebersihannye..then siap2 mau nonton movie~!!! with mom,takep and mok. Mok da sampe kt bwh, mkn2 kt uma dulu..br gerak alamanda..the movie started at 9.40pm..we arrived around 9.45..punctual kan?? wawa! masok2 cte br je nk start..right on time~ ouh..b4 i forgot..we watched SHREK FOREVER AFTER..as usual,i would rate them 5/5..from shrek 1 until shrek 4..xpnh kecewakn ak..it's fucking hilarious dude! u gotta go and watch that movie. Quote that i like, the conversation between donkey and puss. Donkey; "you are a 'Cat'tastrophe!". puss; "well, you are re'donkey'lous!" LOL!



fucking hilarious, seriously. go and watch the movie.wajib!
feel so worth it, after all the house works i've done. penat sume ilang! ;)
thx mom,takep for the drinks and ride, and keep us company. and thx mok blanje muvi..i lap u lah!! haha..

this sem break just getting better and better!!
*HAPPY HAPPY*

something came up in my mind.juz thought of sharing it.

quote i like; u call my man, and imma F*cked u up, touch ma man, and imma F*cked u up..instead: man, u mess with me and imma F*cked u up!

xde motif.saje2.ok.bye.haha.

masih mencari diri sendiri..

di saat detik ini,kosong tp tenang...mungkin dsbbkn faktor mlm dan sejuk sayup2 aircond membuatkn diri terasa tenang despite the problems and issues i've been facing with these past few weeks since the semester break.

i want to write more, but i have no idea what to write about. i just feel like i have to write something.

sambil2 mendengar lagu2 yg br di donlot sebentar td, ak menyelak2 page org d FB
sgt susah nk tdo mlm sbbkn tabiat cuti ak; love to on9 til 4-5 in d morning..sometimes, till 7 kot!! then wake up around 1 or 2..cara hidup yg sehat..bagus!!

sy sng dgn cuti ni..xmcm cuti2 last sem..ade je dilema ak hadapi..but mostly dilema nk pulang ke rumah ke x..kenape mcm tu ek dulu? haha..korunk2 taw laa..kn2??

byk sgt mnde yg ak bole cte kn..tapiiii...xtrase nk bgtau org plak..haha..better keep it for myself.;)
bia ak sorunk yg judge, bia ak sorunk yg kutuk, bia ak sorunk jgk yg puji org len..xelok dedah2 kn cte psl org len kan2??

xde mood nk bercerita kot mlm ni..nnt lah..esok2 kalo rase nk wat dajal ak cte la ek..byk mnde yg nk dkutuk sbnrnye..tapiiiii....bia ak gelak sorunk2 je laa...hahhahaha..all i can say to that particular person; sakai la lu mat..da kene dump tu pasrah je laa. serve u right bro..havent u heard?? KARMA dear, KARMA...;)

p/s 1: b4 korunk sala anggap,mnde ni xde kene mngene ngn org yg rapat ngn ak..but, someone who used to be close to me back then. and others too..haha..
p/s 2: br ak pasan..ape kene mengene tajuk post ak ngn content de??? ke laot sgt da ney~
haha! lantak kaw la labuuu

phewww....that was close..*wiping sweat off my forehead*

haha..that was a close call..luckily my genius brain, brilliantly came up with something good~ u r so genius brain..i Love u..but i love my yayang more!!!! wawawawawawa..

....

money, love, happiness..which one is more important?

for me, definitely money..call me materialistic, but without money how the hell would u survive in this material world? fuck it..i've bcome one of the bitches who looks money over personality aren't i? i dont give a shit lah..as long as im happy..and money really can keep me happy.since im f*ing broke at the moment. so i think the only think that can make me happy right now is, by having ONE WHOLE BIG FAT CASSHHHHHH~. with $$$ you can do whatever u want..

if u're sad...money can cheer u up in many ways.shopping, spa, movies, holidays..for ladies, shopping is usually a common way to de-stress.for me.at least.
same goes when u're stressed, mad, lonely, and etc..
when u have the money, everything goes...

u dont need to rely on others when u have the fulus..instead,ppl will rely on u,worship u, kiss ur fat ass, ppl will do anything for money.

aarrrgghhhh..im officially obssesed to $$$$$ *have no f*ing idea why i bring up this stupid topic*

oke, actually..im depressed..bcoz of:
1-fuck it, im broke
2-i cnt even find any part time job
3-i cnt register for my short sem course, which means i have to extend
4-im in a full-of-crap-and-too-many-dramas relationship
5-i cnt find my peace,and
6-im bored to death,bcoz
7-back to number 1, im F*ing BROKE!!! so i cant do anything, can i?

hidop rase sgt kosong bile xstdy ni..kenape ek? time stdy,punye la poyo2 xsbr cuti..bile da cuti, maty akal trus..knp?

i kinda hate my life right now.

ok, so this whole sem has not been a great sem 4 me.
actually, its the worst i think...financially.seriously.
im fucked up..*was inspired by the song im listening to now, shots!*

back to the story, i failed to manage my money this sem..so so so baaaaddd~~smpikn tahap dwet mkn pon xdak! never in my whole damn life, ak xde wet nk mkn,smpaikn kene org len yg tanggung ak..seriously, never! until this sem..T_T *rase teramat hina and rendah sgt bile da tahap mcmtu* sbb ak salu 'adviced' satu makhluk tuhan ni supaya berjimat, jgn beli bukan2, dont spent mambabi buta..last2 ak yg jd babi buta..what the F? maybe menjangkit kot..ak xpnah tau lak kalo kite nasihat org, menda tu bole menjangkit? haihh..i tot penyakit melatah je yg bole jangkit..xsangke, kalo nasehat2 pon..prangai buruk org tu bole jangkit gak en..haihh..padan muke ak..lenkali xyah sebok2 nk nasehat org..jage poket sndri je.

ishhh..tgk syok2 tulis blog..ade je anasir2 yg mengaco..ish3...
nnt lah ak smbg ye..huhuh.. daaaaaa!!

i want fun!!!!!! *rebellious mood*

can't i have fun just for a little while? its not like im gong to turn my whole world upside down..just a little,tiny,innocent fun time to rejuvenate myself from the exam gloom~
tried to call eliy, she didn't pickup..tido lg ke makcik!!
yo2 ajak ak gonjeng2.ak call ko lak xangkat..sob3..
but,as ppl have said, where there's a will, there's a way..so im making my own waayyyy..
haha!! *tanduk kua dah*
if everyone is unavailable, guess i have to find my own entertainment..how? i dont know, maybe i could just go and wandering from one place to another until i found the right place to loose myself.haha!

ah xdulik!!
i need to de-stress, i have to!!
or else, could gon' crazzzaaayyy~

to eliy samai..tggu ko ye. m gonna call ya til i cn reach ya!!

weyh2..exam abes da weyh.. *BIG SMILE ON MY FACE*

Ouh yeaaaaa~!!!! muahahhahahha...
aish..xbaek gelak cm setan.
ok2 let me start again..ehem2

Assalamualaikum kawan2, anda semua sihat? exam mcm mane? ape??xabes lg? Ouh...sedih sunggoh saye dengar.sy tumpang bersimpati untuk anda..ape??tdo xckup?xley kua begonjeg? tension sbb byk lg xstdy?..xpe,bertahan ye..we r the same..coz i've been there, so i know how it felt..But wait, anda2 semua xabis exam lg??ape??sy dah abes??muahahhahahahaha....boleh la sy gonjeng puas2 bukan? tdo puas2,guling2 puas2...semua puas2 lah,smpi utility level ak jd 0.*econ term okeayy* ;p

1st let me say, Alhamdulillah..Thank to GOD, I've managed to went through these past few rough and tough weeks with less complication..yes, i have to admit, mmg byk sgt dugaan and cobaan which almost drag me into this negative hole inside of me. kalau la ak xthn sket time tu, mmg ak rse ak da lari dr UM nih..n GOD knows, what would happen to me then. But luckily The Almighty God was with me..and i Pray to HIM everyday, asked for strength and strong will to help me go through the final weeks..and it went pretty well i may say,except for corp tax, and adv audit which i don't wanna talk about it..(*_*)

and now,time to de-stress!! yeayyy!! i can do whatever i want, and i got everything planned out..1st thing 1st, i need my sleep!!!and rest of course, and hang out with frenzy..borak2 catch up wtih em..then, need to focus back on study..since i'll be taking short semester this year sbb nk grad on time kan..*haha,pdn muke ak.sape suro byk maen*. So according to my plan, I probably going to stay with my sister at Kota D'sara..and if God's willing, i'll be doing part time as well in short sem, tok tampung idop time short sem since ak xde sugar daddy nk tampung daily expense ak..LOL!!! ;))

guess i have to try look for any vacancies around D'sara area..most probably around The Curve area kot..sbb pling dkt dgn umah de kn..so sng nk g keje ari2.dkt pon dkt..and ade public transportation, so i don't have to depend on my sis that much aite.*dun worry kakngah, u're safe ;)*
So will stay there until finished my short sem..maybe on weekends br blik bngi..
And that was the plan..hope everything goes as planned.Amiinn.;))

p/s: To those who still struggling for finals, chayok2!! don't give up.kejap je tu. and do give ur best in the exams. (^_^)
sincerely, cek naqyah yg tgh sonot sbb exam da bes..muahahhahahhaa..

adios amigos!!!!