i want YOU!! only you!

i want you!! only you!!!!
can't believe it's time for you to leave. even though only 3month, but still 3months is long enough for me to miss you like craaaaaaazeeeyy!!
don't want you to leave, but i can't stop you.
i want you.i want you.i want you.no one else but you. i realize that now. it's you i need. YOU!!!!

waaaaaaaaa...mok don't leave me alone here..sob3. T_T

to you syg, i love u so so much. we've been through alot together. senang susah xpernah sendiri.always with you. sehat saket, with you, gembira sedih marah, with you. i don't want you to go away, far from me. i want u here with me. sedih. u're going in 3 days. i'm not sure if i really can handle with you going away.

SAYANG U MOK!!!!!

p/s: please don't go. T_T

Unknown Evil Virus!!

Okay, im not sure from whom did arish get the infection. But i'm sure it's not from me. I think. heheh. well, maybe it's from me. But i didn't have the fever just cough, flu, sore throat and dizziness. errr..on second thought, maybe it was from me. =_='

It started after we got back from one of my cousin's wedding at Melaka. On monday, arish's temperature started to shoot up til 38'C. poor arish. at 1st we thought because of his first new tooth. But after 3days, his condition looked worse. We went to the clinic and right away he had to be warded because of dehydration and low blood platelet i think. The dr claimed there were some sort of virus in his body but they're unable to identified what kind of virus. 3 days later, with God's will arish sehat walafiat.

But unfortunate for mom, she got infected by arish. only worse. tu la mak, yg mak p doa saket arish pg kt mak knape. huhu. so mum's warded at hospital serdang. my god!! nk menunggu doc bapak lame!!! can u imagine we had to wait from 11 am until 7 br mak dpt masok bilik wad. poor mom, ak rase sume org yg saket p hospital serdang tu bertambah saket kene tggu berjam2. melampau sgt lamenye. when we complaint to the doc, de ckp. sbb hospital serdang sbnrnye utk saket2 yg memerlukan specialist je, but since ramai sgt org yg dtg, even org yg saket biase2 je, de dh jd mcm hospital gov. btol ke? kalo da tau org rmi g sane, transfer la doc2 biase dkt sane.gileeeee....haih. kene masok 2 bags of blood coz dr said her hemoglobin dropped almost half. sgt merisaukn. looks like the virus suck ppl blood internally.creepy.

thank god mom only warded for 3 days. today, already discharge. moga2 makin sihat ok mum! ;)don't worry, i will take care of you. Luv you much much!!

ByeBye mok..sob3 (T_T)

When you're gone it feels like, my whole world has gone with you. i thought love would be my cure, but now it's my disease. i tried to act mature, but I'm a baby when you leave. How can i ever get used, to be without you. ;(

I'm hoping all the best for you love, be brave, be strong. xmo homesick. don't be sad and don't let people bully you ok mok?? please, please, please, take care of yourself. no one will be there to take care of you. So you have to learn how to live by your own and be independent. I will pray for your safety and success over there. and i hope u could learn something new and valuable to you. Hope it'll teach you important values in life and turns you into a better person.

I will hold to your promise as u told me your main purpose and goal after u finished your training. And you don't have to worry love, i won't go messing around behind your back. Instead, i will be waiting for you, right here and I'm not going anywhere until you came back. coz when you're gone, you'll take my heart with you and it'll stay there till GOD takes me away from you, Insyallah.

And you know what? i haven't told you before, but you are the ONLY person that could bring out the WORST and BEST in me at the SAME TIME. and i thank you for that, and made me realize how important i am in this world, same as how important you are to me. ;) *im starting to babbling, have to stop before it gets any worse*

my <3 goes to you Love, always...

I HEART YOU, mok.

-xoxo-

u think u so hot??wtf siot...budget gle...

haha..i never consider myself hot..bad tempered yes..y? jeles eyh? hahhahaha

Ask me anything, i'll try to answer it at my best. ;)

weirdest dream i've ever had

so last night before i went to sleep, watch couple of episodes of chuck while i ate satay kajang hafez bought earlier for my newlywed cousin with her parents came from malacca. after finished watching 2 episodes, i was ready to go to bed. Then i woke up this morning, realize i just had the weirdest dream ever. well, its about errr..someone who got nothing to do with me whatsoever, well maybe not directly. i dreamed she followed us to the island trip we had few weeks back for my sis' wed.remember? yeah, that trip.so she followed us, but i have no freaking idea who invited her??so in the dream, i didn't talk to her at all. she was like all blur and clueless why the hell she had to be there. until we went back home at bangi. i try to talk to her. and next thing i know, i blurt out all his past dark secret and bad things he had done behind her back when she was his girl.and she was like, couldn't believe what i've just said and she looked pretty disappointed too. and suddenly i woke up!

ok. it was weird, why..of all the people, i have to dreamed bout her?we never even met??and i never talked to her!! what the hell is this supposed to mean? have i turn to obsessed freak? to someone i barely knew??or was i obsessed with his past?? hmmm..i think it's not obsession. it's paranoid crap minded me!! *heavy sigh*

i can't live like this anymore.what the fuck??? don't i have my own life to be busy with?? why the fuck should i care about other stupid girl from his past?? why should i be so fucking worry about her taking back what once belong to her? when she didn't even give a damn about him?? yup.it's a crap talk. my crappy mind stimulates crappy thoughts of crappy things about that crappy girl and my fucking crappy man!!

Oh GOD, i desperately need to be with God, so i can find peace and calm my paranoid mind. please Almighty GOD, help me find my peace and stay in it! i hate this paranoid, insecure thinking of mine. maybe it's best we're separated for awhile. so that i can look back, and think what when wrong and i can fix myself before things get any worse.

-self motivation naqyah, self motivation-

p/s: wanna go to bukit ampang before he goes, sooo badly.;(

busy june!!!

it's 2.12 am.and im still awake.ok.this month has been the busiest month ever!! so many works have to be done.but already done la kan..since now im posting it to the blog.pfft.

at the end of may, my sister's had her akad nikah. and the reception were held at pulau perhentian on the next weekend. so u could just imagine how busy we were, running here and there, trying to settle everything at one time.kunon2 superwoman la kan.it was hectic..poning palo den.

then settle akad nikah.we have one week to prepare for the reception dkt pulau.we planned to have barbecue on the arriving night.*sory, rase mcm sala penggunaan english ak, but ak mcm high, so lantak la eh* since yg sponsor barbecue tu our family, guess sape yg kene peram2 ayam jadah sume tu? of course la kami anak branak!!*anak branak only includes aku,mak,kaklong,crys* yg len xbrp nk tolong n mmg ade yg xrety nk tolong lgsg.no need to go into details.nnt ade yg trase eventhough ak tau korunk xkn bkk blog ak..muahhahahah..sronok nih kalo nk kutok korunk dlm ni.seb bek ak adik yg bek, xsuke ngumpat adek bradek sndri.haha!

back to the story, so we have one week left to prepare for the event at Perhentian.penat, sbb ak sorunk yg duk uma dr pg smpi mlm.so i can say, i did most of the works, tp mak lg byk kot.hehe.de SUPERWOMAN ok??? xdikire..but still, i think i did most of it.she's just the commander of the house. so abes seminggu tu ak abdikn diri dt rumah tersayang. then patotnye ktorunk gerak mlm khamis around 10pm, djadualkn smpai besut around 9 am.butttt...janji melayu kn.last2 gerak kol 11.30pm, smpi 12 tgahri! muahhahaha..trok2~ time smpi jetty besut, OMG we were all already worn out!! penat gile travel for more than 12 hours in a bus! sbb pit stop bus ni byk sgt.haha. FYI, we booked the whole bus for the trip, so paham2 je la masing2 ngade2 kejap2 nk suro bus stop.nk tekucil la.nk tekujat laa.haih,ponek den!

then sampai jety besut, we take the SLOW MO boat.ggrrr..ni sorunk lg.slow sangat boat de!!! arrrggghhh..if we took the speed boat in only takes half an hour, instead, we have to ride on this slow mo boat which it took us 1 hour to reach Perhentian..bluuueeewwwwhhhh..penat!

but the important thing is, we arrived at Perhentian safely. Alhamdulillah.thank God.;)we had barbecue on that night, the next day is the BIG DAY.oouuhh..at 1st, everything was like, a MESS!!BIGG MESS! but things slowly go as planned.ade la cacat cela sini situ.but Alhamdulillah still dpt title wedding of the year from the cousins.heheh *tumpang bangge on behalf of the roslim's clan ;p* thx cozs for being such sport.

dah pnt after wed, everyone had fun playing all around the island as if pulau tu kita yg punya.muahahaha.we went for snorkeling, some playing beach volley ball, others just hang out and chit chat + gossiping (aktiviti harus la kn).

on sunday,after bfast smpt ak ajk mok g snorkeling dkt shark point, and lucky me, i saw two baby sharks, try to follow em, tp de swim lju sgt, somput den.x larat nk kjr.huhu.tp puas ati sbb dpt tgk baby shark.;)

nk dljukn cter, gerak from pentian to besut around 2.smpi besut, we had lunch with besut's DO. my dad's cuosin's husband.make sense?? then grk KL.we arrived around 2am.
huh, slmt pergi, slmt pulang. Alhamdulillah.;)

ok.itu cter last week.this weekend plak, cousin's wed dkt mlake.so saturday morning grak mlake,tdo sane.akad mlm sabtu n sanding ahad.so pap pung pap pung, maka setel lah stu kenduri. ni br smpi bngi from mlake. and next week reception at groom's house pulak..waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh..pnat oi! seb bek la ak cuti lg.weekdays org sebok kje, ak sebok merehatkn bdn kt umh.muahahaha. bestnye jd student~~~weeeweee.

ouh yes, pastu ceyla mntk tmn g tgk photoshoot nye place, so smpt jgk de snap few pics of me.heee.thx ceyla for the pix n kenny's.hehe.




ok.there's one bad/good news.depends on how u look at the situation.but for me its a half good half bad news,coz my mok2 will go for his 3mnth police training at kuching on July 1st. ;( sad. but for the sake of his future.i have to let em go. mok training elok2 ok.jgn gatai2 n jgn homesick2 pulak.maloo je da beso2 homesick,taw mok taw.

done.i think its time for me to sign off.pjg sgt da ney. lapo perot sbb idea kering.muahahaha..nanyte everybody!! muahx2!


ouh, p/s: here some of the pix of my past weeks activity.

so u answered is having him by ur side,everytime needed..then who is the best person that u ever had or in realation with? be honest!

hahahaha..u think??? im proudly to say, my current mok is the best guy i've ever dated..he'd do anything for me, n sacrifice his own needs juz to fulfil my childish needs..he's the only one could stand my mood swing, 'gila sawan', gile meroyan, and other types of gila u could think of..trust me, u need alot of patience to be with me.. he knows how to cheer me up. he'd do anything juz to see me happy..
<3 u mok

so there u go..satisfied?

btw, y do u curiously wanna know?

Ask me anything, i'll try to answer it at my best. ;)