If you have problem with me, Come and confront me like a real man, instead of bitching people on your status, A*Hole.

Correct me if im wrong, but if you DO have problem with me being close to your BEST FRIEND, be a gentleman, tell it to my face. don't go publicly bitching people as if u're sooo great, famous and all. Please, u're only a KG boy from nowhere trying to act like city boi. pfft.

And let me make things clear for you,1st; im not the one chasing him back. He approached me 1st.
2nd: i told him yeaaarrrrssss ago, just let it go. don't hold ur feelings. and don't put hopes on me coz i will never ever get back with him coz the only feeling i have for him is, love for a friend. Not more, not less. I've told him tooo many times. and even so, he just can't get enough of me. I'm trying to be nice by not ignoring him. and you should know better, if he told you the truth, you would know how many times we have discussed about this.

But maybe you look at it at the wrong perspective. I'm not trying to give him hopes or anything. I AM JUST TRYING TO BE NICE AS A FRIEND. It's never my intention to played him or gave him false hope. Yes, we used to be in love, but ppl change, feelings change. Most of the time, ppl will MOVE ON. But in his CASE, he REFUSED to move on. So don't blame me for his own incapability and weakness.

So to YOU, seriously, if you don't like seeing me be friend with your BESTFRIEND again, just tell me, i won't bother him anymore. No need to be sarcastic. Sume da besar panjang. blaja tggi2, gune otak sket. OK?

I Love YOU, GOD.

Alhamdulillah, everything went well and it has certainly opens up my mind and makes me think thoroughly about this situation. it makes me realize how things could change easily if God wants to. You are indeed the Powerful Almighty, which could turns thing upside down in a split second. And i realize it now. I want to make a vow to myself, i promise i will change as best as i could with YOUR help, and i don't want to have my past repeated in my future. I have to be strong. I need to strengthen my will, and my faith to God. Insya'allah, everything will be alright. at least, i hope so.

and for those who think it's too late to change, you're wrong. Never stop yourself from changing just because you think you'd stray too far and can never go back. If there's a will, there's a way. God will always be with you, if you are in the right path with the right heart. and i hope, this time around, it would be my turn to change and find my own path again. when things are not complicated with no dilemma or whatsoever.

I know how someone could change and turn our life upside down in just a second, and most of the time, not in the good way. But you have to remember, everything happens for a reason. Your job is to find the reason and learn from your past. yup, that's what past for, to teach you to be more mature, think wiser and choose carefully. Never make decision out of anger, excitement or in any kind of unstable emotion and mind. Take your time, think wisely, and try see things from the future aspect. What are the possible consequences and does the pros outweigh the cons. This is my mistake, never think thoroughly, and never think of the outcomes. But Im still thankful to God, coz now i have learnt my lesson and i will choose and act wisely. Never ever make decisions that could impaired your bright future, for example from the education aspect, or even career aspect. Never let anyone be the reason you can't focus on your study, you lose golden opportunity just because of sweet promises they've made to you. Not until they really show the efforts and result.

This whole situation had got me thinking, is it really worth it? Do i need to bear with all these? I know i have better choices, but can i really make wise decisions? Can i stand with the persuasion, temptation and all? I pray to God, and hope i could. Insya'allah.

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Ya Allah, terlalu besar dugaan mu pada ku di Bulan Ramadhan ini.

16 august 2010, Isnin.

tak pernah sekali pon dlm hidop ak di beri dugaan sebegini rupa. Sesungguhnya Kau maha Berkuasa dan mampu melakukan apa sahaja dalam sekelip mata. No wonder i feel this Ramadhan will be different, never knew this kind of obstacle would come. Kau benar2 telah memberi ujian terhadap diriku dan memberi kesedaran yg teramat jelas. Sekiranya diizinkan Kau agar semua ini berakhir mengikut kehendak ku, akan ku cuba sedaya upaya ku dan akan ku kuatkn iman ku agar perkara sebegini tidak berulang lagi. tidak pernah niat ak untuk melakukan perkara2 yg keji, dan akan ku pastikn tidak akan pernah wujud perkara2 sebegini dlm hidupku.

I know this is all my fault, always take things lightly and never think of the possible consequences. Ya Allah, sempena bulan Ramadhan yg mulia ini, berikanlah ak petunjuk dan kekuatan untuk hidup berlandaskan syariat mu. Show me the right path again. I don't want to be lost forever. Berikan aku dan dia hidayah supaya kami mendpt kebahagiaan dunia dan akhirat. Jika itu takdir Kau. amin amin ya rabbal'alamin

Ramadhan's back!! ^_^

Yeaaayyy!!Ramadhan's here again. and this time, Im gonna utilize this sacred month. When i look back, i'd wasted these golden opportunities to redeem myself these past couple of years and didn't think of the benefits and the pleasure of having Ramadhan again. Alhamdulillah, I'm thankful to the Almighty God for giving me the chance to celebrate it this year. If it's God's will, i'll try my best not to miss tarawikh each night and i really really really really really do want to be a better person. Only my will isn't strong enough. So i hope this time around, i could CHANGE, for GOOD. i want to be better in so many ways so i could have a better life, better attitude, better grades?*heheh* and most importantly, a better future for me and my loved ones.

And i hope this Ramadhan will bring air of change*in a good way,i mean* to all Muslims around the world, may GOD be with us and bless us all. And tomorrow will be the last day for us to eat publicly tanpa segan silu. muahahhahaa. Eat as much as you can sista, coz starting from the day after, all your cravings have to wait til dusk!! ;p

Semoga kite dpt menjalani bulan Ramadhan dgn hati yg terbuka n tenang.
Ouh ye, kpd yg dh keje, ikat perut kuat sket, sbb korunk kene bg dwet raye dkt ak lg!!!! wawawawawa..

ape2 pon, wish u guys happy ramadhan and selamat berpuasa anak2!!! ^_^

-Naqyah tgh baik-

Peminat ke stalker? hahaha!

eh2..sy ade peminat laa..eyh jap..peminat ka? copycat ka? or stalker ka? Muahahahhahaha.. LAWAK..xpe2.sy berbesar hati.time kasih la yeeee...
lalalallalalaa...

sorry guys, didn't feel like updating my blog. Maybe when i'm in my Blogging mood, i'll update OKie! ^_^